“Suppose we suddenly wake up and see that what we thought to be this and that, ain’t this and that at all?”
I make a surprised face at myself in the mirror over the sink and glance once at the door before sitting down to do my business. I get up quickly, wash my hands, and dry them on a small brown towel monogrammed with an “M.”
As I blink into the mirror, I remember the lines of his beautiful torso—the mouth-watering body that’s standing right down the hall. The way his weight felt against me on the bed. The way his mouth felt on my neck. The way his c**k felt inside of me. And I can feel myself react.
This has never happened before. Ever—except that evening when I first met him in the Wynn.
I look into the mirror and my cheeks are pink. Pink like it’s snowing outside and I have windburn. Pink like too long on the upper deck of a ship on a sunny day.
Before I leave the bathroom, I tell myself to calm down. He seems tired and kind of quiet today. Clearly, not in the mood for a repeat.
I wonder if he really went to rehab. He certainly seems more…settled somehow, now.
I take one more look at the framed quote on the wall and step back into the hall. My mind is spinning. The best thing to do would be to run—not walk—back to my rented Jeep and rely on my team of jewelry-finders to find Gran Gran’s ring.
I’m glad I came and saw him, glad I wished him well, but I lose my head around this man. I’m losing it more now that I know he likes Kerouac.
Real pimps don’t read good literature—do they?
I hurry down the hall and find him leaning against the wall at the mouth of the living area with his arms crossed. I can see the tattoo on his side, the mysterious date I remember from before.
He looks me over. His eyes are intense and slightly heavy. I can feel his attention on me like a laser, making me squirm.
“What’s your favorite color?” he asks.
“Favorite color?”
He holds up a basket filled with Starbursts.
“Oh. I like the pinks.”
“Good choice.” He picks three pinks out and offers them too me. “For the road,” he says.
“Thank you.” That reminds me of the Kerouac quote.
I let my eyes have their way with his bare chest once more, willing him to respond. Willing him to take me to his bedroom. When nothing happens, I give up. I’m proud of myself for having the nerve to come out here, but it wasn’t meant to be.
I take a step toward the door, and he moves with me. His eyes look a little brighter now; his body seems a little tenser.
“I like the reds,” he says, “I’m an addict.”
I’m not sure what to say to him. I’m almost to the door, but how do I say bye? I’m flipping through my list of possibilities when I feel his hand on my shoulder.
I turn toward him, struck again by how flipping hot he is without his shirt. Skin so smooth…every muscle flawless. And his eyes—those gorgeous brown eyes are honed on me.
“I…uh. I feel like I should be saying thank you for something. Something big. But I can’t remember what it is. I don’t…I can’t remember much about the last week and a half. Fucking weird, I know.” He moves his hand off my shoulder rubs his head.
“You remember the night of the fire, don’t you? The um…pool and everything?”
His face goes white. He blinks a few times. “I had forgotten that you pulled me out.” His voice sounds low and very deep. His shoulders are visibly tense. I think he may be embarrassed.
Clearly, this confirms he has a drug problem.
“You don’t have to say thank you. I would do it again in a heartbeat. I’m just happy I was there.”
“Well anyway—thank you.”
He turns around and grabs the basket. “Stay and let me pick out all the pinks?”
I’m surprised to feel my cheeks go hot. The way he’s looking at me today…it’s almost…sweet. Strangely, it makes him seem even hotter. I wonder briefly if his ass**le moments were all because of drugs. If he doesn’t remember the pool, does that mean he also forgot our night together? That would really suck.
I’m deep in thought when he interrupts with, “You’re a designer, right? Interior decorating?”
I nod. “Yep.” When he just keeps staring at me, I expound. “I own my own business in Napa.” And, after a moment’s hesitation, I decide to satiate my curiosity. “Did you use Sally Hurst when you opened?”
He nods. “Yeah. Fucking loved what she did with the place. She’s moved to Greece now, but I guess you know that.”
I do. “You should try Marianita Juarez.”
He laughs. “I can’t stand her.”
“I see why.” Marianita is just about as bossy as they come. She’s good, but when she designs a space, she does it her way. I can’t imagine Marchant Radcliffe would like that.
He steps a little closer, doing that thing again—the thing with his eyes. I feel like I’m being hypnotized, so at first it doesn’t even register when he says, “I don’t suppose you’ve got any openings.”
I blink, shocked. “What kind of job?”
“You know…” He swipes his hand back through his hair. “The interior. Everything that burned. Possibly the other two buildings, too. So it all matches.” He’s staring at me earnestly. “I’d pay you well. Put you up in one of the cottages.” He frowns. “I know that might not seem so good, but it won’t be like before. No swimming,” he jokes.
“What about sex?” I’m shocked when the question pops out of my mouth.
He’s surprised, too. His eyebrows lift. “You want sex?”
“Maybe. I mean…yes. I think I would…like that.”
“In lieu of payment?”
I laugh, even though I’m practically shaking with nervousness. “You’re not that good.”
His eyes narrow at that, and I think he’s actually going to argue the point. Instead he says, voice all husky, “What if I can’t stick to just once?”
“I don’t know. I’m not interested in something…serious, but I think I might enjoy a few romps in the…hay.” I smile a little, and feel like I might giggle, because I have no idea what I’m talking about. BITE THE TONGUE! BITE THE— okay. No giggles.
But I do tremble a bit when he steps even closer. “Romp implies something casual. Nothing about this will be casual. I don’t have sex—I f**k. You understand?”