I stroke my fingers down his back and feel the goosebumps. I tickle my hand down to the elastic of his boxer-briefs and sneak a finger inside them, where I shock both of us by teasing his crack. He draws a shuddering breath and I can feel his body tense.
“If you don’t go now…you might not like the outcome,” he says against my throat. As if to accentuate the point, he lifts his head. His eyes are wide. “I mean it.”
I smile a little, caressing the hair that curves around his ear. “You called me Beauty a second ago. Does that make you Beast?”
His mouth tightens. “It’s not a joke.” He lifts off me and tugs me by my wrist. “Go, before I throw you down face first and f**k you like I want to.”
I’m feeling high in this moment. Lust-drunk and powerful. Like I can keep him on this bed as long as I want to, and turn that frown upside down.
So I say, “Do it.”
He grabs me by my hips and spins me, positioning me on hands and knees so my ass is in the air. He yanks my pants all the way off and slams his finger into me, stroking ruthlessly as his mouth covers my ass**le.
I open my mouth to protest, but it’s only a breath before I realize it feels good. So good I’m falling forward with my belly pressed against the mattress. My legs can barely keep me up, and then he’s clutching my ass cheek, pumping my cunt, licking me with broad strokes of his tongue, and I’m gasping like I might pass out.
I might pass out.
He gets me close—so close—before he pulls his fingers out and moves his hot mouth off me. I draw my quivering knees in, and he slides his body underneath me so I’m on top. With a dark grin, he reaches down to find my pu**y with his fingers again. It’s tighter now, and I’m curled over, desperate. “Don’t stop…”
I stroke my finger down his chest and lean down so my other hand caresses his head. His eyes harden. “Are you on birth control?”
I open my mouth to say it isn’t necessary, but he cuts me off. “Are you on birth control?”
I nod—to simplify things.
“You take it regularly?”
“Yes,” I lie. “But I also have a condom if you want it.”
He nods and I reach past him for my clutch, the only thing in reach when the fire started. I’ve got some fire-engine red, cherry-flavored condoms in it from that night with Adam at the gala.
I turn back around to find him sitting on his knees. His dick juts out ridiculously, and I’m surprised to find myself gasping with eagerness to feel it inside me. His hands, I’ve noticed, look chapped and painful, so I scoot closer and roll the latex over his plump head.
He closes his eyes as I fit it on him. He’s bigger than Adam, so it’s snug. Below his thickness, his balls look taut and heavy.
I’m trembling as he leans closer. The tip of him brushes my thigh as he takes off my front-clasp bra and leans down to kiss my br**sts. I shove him away and move my mouth as fast as I can to his dick. I caress those swollen balls as I stroke a shaft. He comes in half a minute, leaning over me and pulling on my hair.
“Oh God,” he groans.
I smile as he stretches out on his back, staring without blinking at the ceiling.
“Can I?” I gesture to his cock, which is somehow still hard and ready. He nods a little. I tug the condom off and find a garbage can. When I return, already wondering if he wants more, I find him on his side, facing the air conditioning unit, with his broad, heat-chapped back to me. His breathing is shallow and fast.
I sit down behind him, feeling almost ill with concern. “Are you okay?”
“Don’t ask me that.”
“Why not?”
“Because this isn’t that. It’s just a f**k.”
“Okay,” I murmur.
“Is it?” His voice is low. Almost challenging.
“I knew what I was getting into when I came in here with you. I know you’re a drinker and a fighter and—”
“And what?” He turns around to face me, and I swear I think his eyelashes are wet. His face looks hard and angry.
“You’re not always nice.”
“No—I’m not.”
He grabs my wrists and pushes me down on my back, raising my arms above my head and pressing them down into the mattress.
His face twists. “You think you know me?” His eyes are hard—so hard and empty, I find my lips trembling before I whisper, “No.”
“You made a mistake.” His mouth tightens, and he squeezes my wrists harder. Then, for half a second, his eyes soften. He murmurs, “Do you want to go?”
I swallow hard and shake my head.
“If you stay, I’m going to f**k you.” He releases one wrist and runs his fingertips feather lightly down my belly. “Do you want to be f**ked, Suri Dalton?”
He spreads my legs and lowers his face over my throbbing cunt.
“Answer me,” he murmurs, tracing a finger down my slit. I’m so wet, he glides between my lips with ease, pausing over my entrance to tease me with his thumb. I press my hips up, desperate to feel his fingers stretching inside of me.
“Answer me!”
“YES!” I half-sob.
He glides his fingertip over my clit, and I try to lift my hips to him. My legs are almost useless. I’m trembling so hard I can barely move.
“Wait here,” he tells me. “Do not move.”
He grabs another condom from my bag and quickly rolls it over himself.
Then he gathers both my arms in his big hand, holding them firmly over my head, and moves his hips so he’s teasing me.
“Come on, Marchant… Please!”
He slams inside me—hard and fast, and I scream.
When he leaves me panting in the shower several hours later, I’m not sure if I feel broken or empowered. All I know for certain is I want more.
12
MARCHANT
“Right this way, Mr. Radcliffe.”
I follow the nurse down a long, white hall, and force my legs to stay steady as she slides an ID through a card reader beside a stainless steel door. It makes a soft clicking sound, and she pushes it open, revealing a small, white room dominated by a wide hospital bed and several large machines.
“We’ve spoken with your regular psychiatrist.” She motions to the bed, and I climb onto it. I’m so exhausted I can hardly see straight, so it’s an effort to keep the damn gown shut. “She said you’ve experienced a lengthy manic phase that’s likely winding down. Are you sure you want this?”
I shake my head. “I need this. I’m sure.”