So Tack got his kiss before Rush came back.
And I got to sit in the Colorado sunshine knowing without a doubt I had my hands straight up in the air, tucked so secure, I was safe to enjoy the ride.
Chapter Twenty-Seven
One of Us
It was Sunday afternoon and I was pressed close to Tack on his bike because we were heading down into Denver. Sheila had got a wild hair and decided to throw a barbeque so she made enough potato salad for the entirety of Chaos and bossed Dog into manning the huge barrel grill outside the Compound.
So we were heading down to get our bratwurst and commune with the brethren on a sunny Sunday afternoon.
The sun was shining, the wind was in my hair, I was pressed close to my man, heading toward a grilled brat and life was sweet.
And as we rode, my mind was running over the day before and my lips were smiling.
Not long after Tack left the deck, Rush returned to it, I came to terms with the fact that I was a roller coaster type of girl and was reflecting on the fact that not only was Tack’s house awesome, there was no lawn to mow, it occurred to me that Tack was taking a long time refilling my coffee.
So I’d turned my head, looked over the back of my chair and into the kitchen.
And what I saw cemented in my mind that I’d made the right choice over tequila six weeks before.
Because I saw Tack and Tabby in the kitchen. Tack had his ass against the kitchen counter, his body facing the deck and his girl in his arm. She had both arms around her Dad, leaning in, her cheek to his chest. His arm was high, his strong hand curled around one of her shoulders and his lips were to the top of her hair. He kept them there as I watched and I knew he was talking to her. I couldn’t see all of his face but I guessed he was doing it gentle-like. And I figured it was a good guess because Tabby’s eyes were closed and her face was soft.
I turned away, giving them their moment.
“Jealous,” Rush muttered and I looked from the view to him.
“Pardon, honey?” I muttered back and he looked at me.
“Mom. Jealous of Tabby.”
I said nothing but held his eyes, a non-verbal cue that if he wanted to talk, I was listening.
He wanted to talk.
“Don’t know, but it’s never been good. Thought on it, it’s been so bad. I always thought it was because she don’t get along with her Mom because Gram is awesome with us but she’s even now a bitch to Mom so Mom don’t know any better. But I don’t think that’s it. I think she made bad decisions in her life and Tabby’s got her whole one ahead of her. Mom can’t go back. Tabby’s got time and that’s what Mom wants.”
I nodded because this made sense.
Rush kept talking.
“She’s my sister but it ain’t lost on me she’s also hot so good-lookin’ and young, double threat for Mom.”
“You don’t have to tell me,” I began, “but if you want to, I’d like to know what ‘never been good’ means when it comes to Tab and your Mom.”
He shook his head, looked at the view but shared, “Just always on her ass. My room’s a mess, Mom never says a word. She’s always up in Tabby’s face to clean hers. When we lived there, Mom washed my clothes. Told Tabby years ago it was her responsibility to do hers. I play music loud, Mom don’t say shit. Tabby does or she’s on the phone or somethin’, Mom shouts at her. Never leadin’ into it, she just loses it right off the bat. And, when she hit high school, it got worse.” Rush looked at me. “Tab’s popular. Gets a lot of attention. Drives Mom crazy. Mom’s convinced she’s a slut.”
His eyes grew contemplative and his gaze slid to the view.
“She’s not a slut, honey,” I said gently.
“Seein’ an older guy,” Rush muttered.
“Sometimes, you get told enough you are what you aren’t, it gets in your head and you make it a self-fulfilling prophesy even if you really aren’t that.” Rush looked back at me. “She isn’t that,” I whispered. “She’s just in trouble enough for not being it, she probably thinks she might as well do it since she’s in trouble for it anyway.”
Rush took a moment to consider this and I let him.
Then he murmured, “Makes sense.”
“Stick by her,” I urged and his back slightly straightened.
“I will, Tyra.”
And he would.
“Good, honey.”
He grinned at me, his eyes moved to the view and he took a sip of coffee before he announced, “I need more coffee. You think we gave them enough time?”
He was giving them time, like me.
Really a good kid.
But I needed more coffee too. I’d only had one cup and already a full morning. I was hitting emergency status on the caffeine level.
“You’ve been a member of this family all your life, only you can make that call,” I told him.
I got another grin and he decided, “We’ve given them enough time.”
Oh hell.
That meant it was time.
I nodded, we both stood and Rush did the gentleman thing again, letting me precede him to the door and I wished he didn’t. I was happy to drag my feet.
But we’d given them enough time. I knew this because Tack had his back to the door and it looked like he was preparing food. Tabby was close to her Dad, hip to the counter, talking to him.
I sucked in breath for courage, opened the door and walked through it.
Tack’s torso twisted and his eyes came to me. Tabby’s neck twisted and she did the same.
I opened my mouth to speak. I didn’t know what I was going to say but I did it anyway.
I didn’t get a word out.
Tabby came flying at me and this so surprised me, at first, I just stood there. Then I braced because she threw herself at me full body. I went back on a foot, my arms closing around her but her arms were already around me. Tight.
“Honey –”
“I almost got you hurt!” she wailed then shoved her face in my neck and burst out crying.
I looked at Tack. Tack tipped his head to the side.
“Jesus, bitches,” Rush muttered as he closed the door and squeezed around us.
I grinned at Tack then dropped my head so my lips were at Tabby’s ear.
“I’m fine,” I whispered.
“I’m stupid,” she sobbed into my neck.
“You aren’t. He was cute,” I told her, her body went still then her head jerked back and her watery eyes found mine. “He’s a complete and total jerk, but he was cute.”