Tack’s hand moved to my neck and his body and face got even closer. “You move outta the office and not outta my life and shit goes down, then, Red, you don’t hesitate to tell me. You talk, I’ll listen. I’ll talk, you’ll listen. And unless it’s extreme, we’ll sort it out before I take action.”
I could do that too, maybe.
“But,” Tack went on, “bottom line, no one f**ks with my woman. So, if we sort shit out and my advice is you move the f**k on, that’s what you do. You sleep beside me, Red, no fears, feeling safe. You do not lose sleep over bitches. And I like your mouth but I won’t like it if you can’t brush your teeth and you’re pukin’ all the time. Further to that, I like your body. You can’t eat and you’re pukin’ all the time, you lose weight, I won’t like your body as much. That don’t work for me. So, you don’t move on from a bad situation when that’s the advice I’m givin’ you, I’ll be forced to take action to take care of you. And I will. We agreed?”
“Boiling that down, I do what you want me to do or you do whatever you want to do. Is that what I’m agreeing?”
Tack’s mouth twitched.
Then he muttered, “Yeah.”
“I’m noticing a theme to Life with Kane Allen,” I remarked.
“Yeah, and that theme is, I got your back. I take care of you. You sleep easy. You eat good. And you feel safe. Are you tellin’ me you got a problem with that?”
Well, presenting it like that, I didn’t.
That said, I still did.
Carefully, I replied, “Do you see how my concerns over your responses to the way people treat me in life would make me think twice about sharing important things with you?”
“Yeah, baby, but do you see that when you’re stuck in a box someone slammed over you and can’t see clear, I give you advice that’s lookin’ out for you, you don’t take it ‘cause you can’t see clear and the result is you come to harm in any way, I’m gonna act but I’ll be doin’ it in your best interests?”
Okay, well, presenting it like that, I did see.
Damn.
“You don’t keep shit from me,” Tack continued. “I will admit, there are times when I’ll react, do it fast and do it on gut. But I lived through some serious shit and I’m still doin’ it. I learned you don’t carry through with a kneejerk response. You think about shit and you do it smart. Eliminate blowback. Get the shit job done in a way you can move ahead free and easy.”
This took us to a new topic of conversation, one I wanted to talk about less but also one that I had been able to avoid when I wasn’t officially pronounced Tack’s woman.
One I couldn’t avoid now.
“Speaking of that,” I started, “the living through serious shit part. Now that circumstances have changed, are you going to share?”
“Yeah, I am,” Tack surprised me by replying. “But I’m not gonna do it now.”
“Why not now?”
“’Cause I gotta get my woman a glass of wine. Then I got green beans to cook. Then I want you to enjoy what you’re eatin’ and not be thinkin’ about that shit while you do it. And after that, we’ll be in your bedroom and we won’t be doin’ much talkin’.”
A number of things to look forward to.
Nevertheless.
“Although I don’t want to know, I kind of want to know and maybe sooner is better than later.”
Tack’s hand slipped down me so his arm curved around my back and he dipped his head so he could touch his mouth to mine.
When he lifted it, he said quietly, “My chops are f**kin’ superb. My stuffing, better. Those potatoes, babe, you let loose and enjoy your food, they’ll rock your world. And I made the effort to cook it because I want you to enjoy it. And I like this easy with you and I don’t wanna lose it. Not tonight, our first night of having it. What I will tell you so I can shift that worry outta your eyes is, I’ve lived through worse and I’m still standin’. This Russian mob shit is a pain in my ass and has been a good long while. That said, it’s also turnin’ out to be the means to bring cohesion back to the Club. You’re new but you’re also Chaos, new or not. No one f**ks with Chaos because Chaos f**ks back, as a unit. You f**k one, you f**k us all. So at least I got one less problem because the boys are at my back with that shit and not arguin’ about other shit. The kids are right now at my house and they’re happier there. That’s a Band-Aid but it’s workin’. Another problem down. And you and me have shifted to a place I like and, way you are right now, you like it too. Let’s have this. Later, I’ll fill you in. Now, let’s keep this good.”
I couldn’t argue with that so I whispered, “Okay.” Then I set out to confirm. “But you’ll tell me later?”
“Said I would, I will.”
I nodded then pressed, “About all of it?”
“All of it?” he asked.
“You’ve lived through worse and you’re still standing,” I clarified.
His arms gave me a squeeze. “You wanna know, Red. I’ll tell you. Just not tonight.”
He’d tell me.
I let him in, he was letting me in.
And cooking for me while doing it.
I was thinking I could ride this new roller coaster. I was even thinking I liked it.
I pressed closer as I said, “FYI, handsome, I can cook too.”
“You’re up tomorrow night.”
I edged back half an inch. “But tomorrow night is at your house.”
“Yeah, my house. And bein’ a house, it’s got a kitchen. So you’re cookin’ at my house.”
“But I won’t know where anything is.”
“I don’t have kitchen utensils from Mars, babe. I found my way around yours. You’ll find your way around mine.”
Of course.
“Right,” I murmured then told him, “If you want to get on with the green beans, I can get myself a glass of wine. Do you want a beer?”
“Yeah, I want a beer and I also want you to keep your ass where it is. I’ll get your wine.”
“Tack, I can get my wine and your beer and come right back and hang with you while you finish dinner,” I offered, thinking I was being nice.
Tack’s eyes flashed with amusement as he said, “I bet you can, Red, but what’s up for debate is if you can not argue about every f**kin’ thing.”