Then the John reaches out his hand and taps on the tinted glass.
The car slows, and before it has stopped moving Bilquis has pushed open the door and she half jumps, half falls out onto the blacktop. She's on a hillside road. To the left of her is a steep hill, to the right is a sheer drop. She starts to run down the road.
The limo sits there, unmoving.
It starts to rain, and her high heels slip and twist beneath her. She kicks them off, and runs, soaked to the skin, looking for somewhere she can get off the road. She's scared. She has power, true, but it's hunger-magic, cunt-magic. It has kept her alive in this land for so long, but for everything else she uses her sharp eyes and her mind, her height and her presence.
There's a metal guardrail at knee height on her right, to stop cars from tumbling over the side of the hill, and now the rain is running down the hill road turning it into a river, and the soles of her feet have started to bleed.
The lights of L.A. are spread out in front of her, a twinkling electrical map of an imaginary kingdom, the heavens laid out right here on earth, and she knows that all she needs to be safe is to get off the road.
I am black but comely, she mouths to the night and the rain. I am the rose of Sharon, and the lily of the valleys. Stay me with flagons, comfort me with apples: for I am sick of love.
A fork of lightning burns greenly across the night sky. She loses her footing, slides several feet, skinning her leg and elbow, and she is getting to her feet when she sees the lights of the car descending the hill toward her. It's coming down too fast for safety and she wonders whether to throw herself to the right, where it could crush her against the hillside, or the left, where she might tumble down the gully. She runs across the road, intending to push herself up the wet earth, to climb, when the white stretch limo comes fish-tailing down the slick hillside road, hell, it must be doing eighty, maybe even aquaplaning on the surface of the road, and she's pushing her hands into a handful of weeds and earth, and she's going to get up and away, she knows, when the wet earth crumbles and she tumbles back down onto the road.
The car hits her with an impact that crumples the grille and tosses her into the air like a glove puppet. She lands on the road behind the limo, and the impact shatters her pelvis, fractures her skull. Cold rainwater runs over her face.
She begins to curse her killer: curse him silently, as she cannot move her lips. She curses him in waking and in sleeping, in living and in death. She curses him as only someone who is half-demon on her father's side can curse.
A car door slams. Someone approaches her. "You were an analog girl," he sings again, tunelessly, "living in a digital world." And then he says, "You f**king madonnas. All you f**king madonnas." He walks away.
The car door slams.
The limo reverses, and runs back over her, slowly, for the first time. Her bones crunch beneath the wheels. Then the limo comes back down the hill toward her.
When, finally, it drives away down the hill, all it leaves behind on the road is the smeared red meat of roadkill, barely recognizable as human, and soon even that will be washed away by the rain.
INTERLUDE 2
"Hi, Samantha."
"Mags? Is that you?"
"Who else? Leon said that Auntie Sammy called when I was in the shower."
"We had a good talk. He's such a sweet kid."
"Yeah. I think I'll keep him."
A moment of discomfort for both of them, barely a crackle of a whisper over the telephone lines. Then, "Sammy, how's school?"
"They're giving us a week off. Problem with the furnaces. How are things in your neck of the North Woods?"
"Well, I've got a new next-door neighbor. He does coin tricks. The Lakeside News letter column currently features a blistering debate on the potential rezoning of the town land down by the old cemetery on the southeast shore of the lake and yours truly has to write a strident editorial summarizing the paper's position on this without offending anybody or in fact giving anyone any idea what our position is."
"Sounds like fun."
"It's not. Alison McGovern vanished last week-Jilly and Stan McGovern's oldest. Nice kid. She baby-sat for Leon a few times."
A mouth opens to say something, and it closes again, leaving whatever it was to say unsaid, and instead it says, "That's awful."
"Yes."
"So…" and there's nothing to follow that with that isn't going to hurt, so she says, "Is he cute?"
"Who?"
"The neighbor."
"His name's Ainsel. Mike Ainsel. He's okay. Too young for me. Big guy, looks…what's the word. Begins with an M."
"Mean? Moody? Magnificent? Married?"
A short laugh, then, "Yes, I guess he does look married. I mean, if there's a look that married men have, he kind of has it. But the word I was thinking of was Melancholy. He looks Melancholy."
"And Mysterious?"
"Not particularly. When he moved in he seemed kinda helpless-he didn't even know to heat-seal the windows. These days he still looks like he doesn't know what he's doing here. When he's here-he's here, then he's gone again. I've seen him out walking from time to time."
"Maybe he's a bank robber."
"Uh-huh. Just what I was thinking."
"You were not. That was my idea. Listen, Mags, how are you? Are you okay?"
"Yeah."
"Really?"
"No."
A long pause then. "I'm coming up to see you."
"Sammy, no."
"It'll be after the weekend, before the furnaces are working and school starts again. It'll be fun. You can make up a bed on the couch for me. And invite the mysterious neighbor over for dinner one night."
"Sam, you're matchmaking."
"Who's matchmaking? After Claudine-the-bitch-from-hell, maybe I'm ready to go back to boys for a while. I met a nice strange boy when I hitchhiked down to El Paso for Christmas."
"Oh. Look, Sam, you've got to stop hitchhiking."
"How do you think I'm going to get to Lakeside?"
"Alison McGovern was hitchhiking. Even in a town like this, it's not safe. I'll wire you the money. You can take the bus."
"I'll be fine."
"Sammy."
"Okay, Mags. Wire me the money if it'll let you sleep easier."
"You know it will."
"Okay, bossy big sister. Give Leon a bug and tell him Auntie Sammy's coming up and he's not to hide his toys in her bed this time."
"I'll tell him. I don't promise it'll do any good."
"So when should I expect you?"
"Tomorrow night. You don't have to meet me at the bus station-I'll ask Hinzelmann to run me over in Tessie."
"Too late. Tessie's in mothballs for the winter. But Hinzelmann will give you a ride anyway. He likes you. You listen to his stories."
"Maybe you should get Hinzelmann to write your editorial for you. Let's see. 'On the Rezoning of the Land by the Old Cemetery. It so happens that in the winter of ought-three my grampaw shot a stag down by the old cemetery by the lake. He was out of bullets, so he used a cherry-stone from the lunch my grandmama had packed for him. Creased the skull of the stag and it shot off like a bat out of heck. Two years later he was down that way and he sees this mighty buck with a spreading cherry tree growing between its antlers. Well, he shot it, and grandmama made cherry pies enough that they were still eating them come the next fourth of July…'" And they both laughed, then.
INTERLUDE 3
Jacksonville, Florida. 2:00 A.M.
"The sign says help wanted."
"We're always hiring."
"I can only work the night shift. Is that going to be a problem?"
"Shouldn't be. I can get you an application to fill out. You ever worked in a gas station before?"
"No. I figure, how hard can it be?"
"Well, it ain't rocket science, that's for sure. You know, ma'am, you don't mind my saying this, but you do not look well."
"I know. It's a medical condition. Looks worse than it is. Nothing life-threatening."
"Okay. You leave that application with me. We are really shorthanded on the late shift right now. Round here we call it the zombie shift. You do it too long, that's how you feel. Well now…is that Larna?
"Laura."
"Laura. Okay. Well, I hope you don't mind dealing with weirdos. Because they come out at night."
"I'm sure they do. I can cope."
Chapter Thirteen
Hey, old friend.
What do you say, old friend?
Make it okay, old friend,
Give an old friendship a break.
Why so grim?
We're going on forever.
You, me, him-
Too many lives are at stake…
-Stephen Sondheim, "Old Friends"
It was Saturday morning. Shadow answered the door.
Marguerite Olsen was there. She did hot come in, just stood in the sunlight, looking serious. "Mister Ainsel…?"
"Mike, please," said Shadow.
"Mike, yes. Would you like to come over for dinner tonight? About six, eh? It won't be anything exciting, just spaghetti and meatballs."
"I like spaghetti and meatballs."
"Obviously, if you have any other plans…"
"I have no other plans."
"Six o'clock."
"Should I bring flowers?"
"If you must. But this is a social gesture. Not a romantic one."
He showered. He went for a short walk, down to the bridge and back. The sun was up, a tarnished quarter in the sky, and he was sweating in his coat by the time he got home. He drove the 4-Runner down to Dave's Finest Food and bought a bottle of wine. It was a twenty-dollar bottle, which seemed to Shadow like some kind of guarantee of quality. He didn't know wines, so he bought a Californian cabernet, because Shadow had once seen a bumper-sticker, back when he was younger and people still had bumper stickers on their cars, which said LIFE is A CABERNET and it had made him laugh.
He bought a plant in a pot as a gift. Green leaves, no flowers. Nothing remotely romantic about that.
He bought a carton of milk, which he would never drink, and a selection of fruit, which he would never eat.
Then he drove over to Mabel's and bought a single lunchtime pasty. Mabel's face lit up when she saw him. "Did Hinzelmann catch up with you?"
"I didn't know he was looking for me."
"Yup. Wants to take you ice fishing. And Chad Mulligan wanted to know if I'd seen you around. His cousin's here from out of state. His second cousin, what we used to call kissing cousins. Such a sweetheart. You'll love her," and she dropped the pasty into a brown paper bag, twisted the top over to keep the pasty warm.
Shadow drove the long way home, eating one-handed, the pastry crumbs tumbling onto his jeans and onto the floor of the 4-Runner. He passed the library on the south shore of the lake. It was a black-and-white town in the ice and the snow. Spring seemed unimaginably far away: the klunker would always sit on the ice, with the ice-fishing shelters and the pickup trucks and the snowmobile tracks.
He reached his apartment, parked, walked up the drive, up the wooden steps to his apartment. The goldfinches and nuthatches on the birdfeeder hardly gave him a glance. He went inside. He watered the plant, wondered whether or not to put the wine into the refrigerator.