Her face turns back to mine, eyes wide and jaw slack. “What?”
“Mac. It’s so obvious.”
The hint of an awkward smile ticks her lips. “He’s a cool guy. And I love his music.” She folds a cocktail napkin obsessively into squares. “But I’m pretty sure he’s taken.”
I squint my eyes toward the stage. “Really? I thought he was single.”
That’s a stupid thing to say. I know nothing about Rex. But it’s in his mannerisms. He doesn’t come across as a guy who goes home to the same girl every night.
“Thanks for coming out…” The deep timbre of Rex’s voice fills the room, followed by skilled picking of an electric guitar. “We’re Ataxia, and we’ll be making love to your senses tonight.” The crowd erupts in cheers. The deep thumping of the bass drum joins the guitar, and the bass follows suit. “So sit back and enjoy the foreplay.”
Mac leans in. “I better get back to work.” She yells to be heard over the music. With one last look at Rex, she swings her gaze to mine. There’s a softness in her eyes, sympathy or sadness maybe. It disappears before I can decide which. She mouths I’ll check on you later. I nod and she walks away, her midnight curls bouncing with each step.
The band explodes into a song. Club patrons jump to their feet to scream and sing along. The music is amazing. The energy infuses the air on a molecular level.
But I’m fixated on the empty seat at my side.
Talking about Metallica with genuine smiles and interest, he wasn’t the cocky jerk he was before. He seemed more real. I made the ultimate mistake by letting my guard down. Allowed myself to be myself for a minute. And then I got freaked out. It’s not his fault. He’s a playboy, and he makes no promises about being otherwise. He called Mac “babe”, and he became the old Blake in my eyes.
So I chased him away.
Backed him into a corner with my accusations. And he retaliated. Figured me out, exposed my weakness, and made me vulnerable. Then he delivered the punishing blow.
He’s probably right. I’m a little crazy, broken, and a mess. But who wouldn’t be after what I’ve been through.
Don’t act like you didn’t want it.
My stomach pitches as the voice fights to bust into my thoughts. I bite the inside of my mouth and try to push the voice of the past back.
You’ll never get rid of me.
That may be true. But I’ll sure as hell try.
With a toss of my cocktail straw, I throw back the rest of my double vodka and soda. Drinking until I pass out should shut the f**ker up. Or at the very least, make me forget. Even if only for one night.
Six
Blake
“Doc Z?” I stick my head into the small office located inside the locker room. He’s only here a few days a week, and I want to catch him before my back gets worse.
He looks up and slicks a wave of thick, gray hair off his forehead. “Blake, come on in.”
I weave around a few random boxes on the floor. The walls are bare where the last doctor’s framed medical degrees and sports medicine certifications once hung. I guess he hasn’t unpacked yet. His desk is empty except for a computer and a few short stacks of paperwork.
“Sorry to bother you.” I take a seat on the other side of his desk. “My back still hurts like a motherfucker.”
“Yeah, lumbar strains can be a bitch.” He types some shit into a computer. “The supplement shakes aren’t helping? Or the pills?”
“Yeah, they are. I think. But I’m training hard. I need something stronger than that natural shit you’ve got me on.”
He scratches his chin. “Of course.”
“Can you fix me?”
He laughs. “Fixing will take time. Time you don’t have. But I can keep you pain free until the fight. I’ll give you some cortisone shots. That, along with the shakes—”
“Don’t care. Whatever it takes to train.”
“You sure? The cortisone will make it so you can’t feel the pain, but it won’t prevent further injury.”
I shrug. “What choice do I have?”
He studies me through narrowed eyes. “Good point.”
“Have you got time to do the shots now? Sooner the better.”
After a quick flip through some pages of what I assume to be his planner, he nods. “Yeah. Meet me in the treatment room in thirty.”
“Thanks, Doc.”
~*~
“Come on! Hit it!” Owen yells from behind the heavy bag. He’s been talking shit since we started. “What in the f**k is wrong with you? My nanna hits harder than this.”
I drop my gloved hands to my side. “I’m hittin’ it hard. Put your face there and tell me if it hurts, dickhead.”
My back cramps, but it’s bearable after my session with the doc. He said it takes about two days for the cortisone to hit its highest potency, but that I should feel some immediate relief. The pinch is still there, but my mobility has improved.
“Man, Wade’s been—”
“Fuck Wade. I’ll destroy him on fight night.” I hear the confidence in my voice, but a trickling doubt sets in. I kick it back. As soon as the shots deaden the pain completely, I’ll train harder and make everyone who gave me shit send me a formal apology.
“Show me you’ll destroy him.” Owen throws his shoulder into the bag to brace it. “Let’s go!”
Opening my stance, I throw my weight into my punches, over and over again, until Owen is satisfied and backs off the bag. We move through a few different drills. Kicks, sweeps, and combinations. The aching in my back dissolves, and I’m itching to push myself harder.
“I want… to spar,” I say, catching my breath.
“Rex is waiting for you in the octagon.” He pulls his phone from his pocket. “Shit, it’s Nikki. I’ve got to take this. I’ll meet you guys there.”
Owen walks toward the locker room, and I jog to the octagon, trying to keep my body loose and my blood thrumming.
Rex is there, leaning up against the chain link of the cage. “Where the hell did you run off to last night?”
Last night. Shit. I haven’t thought about Layla all morning. Or the shattered look on her face when I turned my back and walked out of the club. Thanks a lot, a**hole. “Had to be here early. Didn’t want to drink too much.” I sniff and drag a towel across my sweaty forehead.
Rex tilts his head and studies my face. “What’s her name?”
“Fuck you talkin’ about?”
He laughs. “The girl who scared you off last night. Talon said he saw you getting into it with a smokin’ hot chick.”
I shake my head. He’s right about the smokin’ hot part. What he’s missing is the crazy-as-a-celibate-on-Viagra part.
“She didn’t scare me off.” Shit. I scared myself.
Even pissed—hell, especially pissed—that woman is addicting. I stayed up half the night wondering what happened to her. I imagined breaking every single bone of the f**ker that broke her. I drafted my apology to her over and over in my head. What I said was a low blow. I exposed her past, something she’s clearly wounded by, and shanked her with it. I attacked her weakness. Just like my dad. Fuck.
“Whatever you say.” He rolls his head around on his neck. “You ready to—”
“Hell-oooo? Does anyone in this place know where I can find my mom?”
Our heads swivel in unison to the direction of the girl’s voice. Mom?
She must’ve taken our moment of distraction as an invitation because she smiles and walks toward us. “Hi. I’m looking for my mom. Can either of you tell me where she is? That lady at the front desk didn’t know her tits from her toes.”
I choke on a swell of laughter. “Sorry, kiddo. You must have the wrong place.”
I can’t think of a single girl who works here who’s old enough to have a kid. Especially one in her teens.
She rolls her eyes and throws out a hip. “Nope. This is the place. I drop her off every morning and pick her up every night. I should know.”
Drops her off and picks her up every night? It’s not one of the Cage Girls. They’re only here a couple days a week. Vanessa is single. No kids. That only leaves—no f**king way.
I grab onto the chain link, speaking through the cage. “Who’s your mom, kiddo?”
“Lay—”
“Elle?” Layla’s voice sounds panicked as she hurries across the room to the teenager.
“Mom!” Elle spins around, her long, straight, and very dark hair flying with the force of her movement. “That piece of shit car broke down. Do you know how embarrassing it is to try and start your car in a parking lot full of a**holes laughing at you?”
Layla’s face ignites in a bright red blush. “Watch your mouth.”
She motions to Rex and me in the octagon. “Mom, I’m pretty sure these guys have heard it all before. Jeez.”
“That’s not the point. You’re sixteen years old.” She’s trying to keep her voice down, but I’m hanging on every word.
Did she say sixteen? That’s impossible. Layla doesn’t look old enough to have a teenage daughter.
“Did you not hear what I said? I’m telling you our only car is toast, and you’re worried about me saying shit in front of a couple of rough-neck fighters?”
“Axelle Rose. That’s enough.”
No. She. Fucking. Didn’t. She named her daughter after the lead singer of Guns N’ Roses. I feel the weight of my jaw as my mouth hangs wide open.
“I had to bum a ride off a guy from school just to get here. Luckily he’s super sweet, or I’d probably be dead right now.”
Layla’s face pinches in disapproval. “Dammit. You should have called me from school. I could’ve sent a cab.”
Nothing about this is okay. I piece together the things I’m learning. Young mom, broken by a man, living alone with a teenage daughter. I flex my fists and grind my teeth.
Before I’m even aware of what I’m doing, I’m moving toward them. “Who brought you here?”
Axelle tilts her head, motioning to the lobby. “A guy from school. Said he wouldn’t leave until I found my mom.”
“And your car?”
“School parking lot.”
I direct my next question to Layla. “You have any roadside assistance, triple A?”
She studies her feet and shakes her head.
“Right. Give me a second to get cleaned up.”
“Blake, this isn’t your problem to—”
I glare hard at Layla, silencing her immediately. “Don’t.” I look up at Rex. “I need a couple hours.”
Rex gives me a chin lift and a wicked smile. Dick.
I walk toward the locker room to get changed but stop when a hand grabs my elbow. I growl in irritation as I turn around. “What?”
Layla pulls her hand off at my reaction. “Blake, I need to apologize. Last night…” She rolls her fingers into the hem of her shirt. “I was wrong. I accused you and attacked you, and I’m sorry. You didn’t deserve that.”